After an amazing and emotionally draining July, I concluded my journey in an email to my two new friends on August 3rd. I shared all that I had experience and all I was continuing to learn. Then in September, I headed up to Canada to spend some time with Kevin while he was in Ottawa on business.
I received an email from one of my new friends. Here is a portion of what she wrote:
You wrote your concluding email on August 3rd and on August 5th I had a positive pregnancy test. (and subsequently 11 more!) Today I am 9 weeks and 4 days pregnant. It is still quite surreal to me and I cannot believe God would heal me and answer my prayers the very moment I asked. I also know that he answered them in His timing since it was a journey of faith that I was on at the exact moment He chose life to begin inside me. Life began in a child that we will have in April and in my own heart again. I have never had such blind faith before and it truly is an amazing experience but it took a LONG time to get here. I'm sure He isn't finished with this lesson yet. I believe that God used my desperate cry for healing and your obedience. I believe that He has healed me for His glory.
My prayer, dear friend for you is that you will experience all that God has for you on this journey. Don't be disheartened but in it all find God, find a way to thank and praise him. Even if working with fertility Dr's is your chosen path, think of how you and your journey could impact those Dr's and nurses and perhaps another fellow woman walking with you on this journey.
As I read her email I began to cry. God answered my prayer in a very real way; a way I had never experienced before. I don't know if I have ever been so excited to hear someone else was pregnant. Especially this year! But God had healed her body, and opened her womb. He hears our prayers. It was such a beautiful experience and I thank God everyday that He allowed me to be a part of it all. His glory and grace astound me.
Hi sweetie, I don't know if you remember me or not. My name is Lena Sanders.I was a member of FSBC Lompoc and the janitor, kindergaten teacher when your dad served there. I don't remember how I ended up on your site, but my heart absolutely breaks as I read it. I know exactly what you are feeling. Don & I remained childless for almost 10 years before we finally adopted. I couldn't understand why. Your faith is extraordinary, so much better than mine ever was or probably ever will be. I know how hard it must be when your sister seems to get pregnant so easily. Friends all around you getting pregnant. We found ourselves searching out older people to pal around with after a few years because the pain was so unbearable sometimes. The hardest part is being patient and waiting on God. He knows your pain. He loves you and hasn't forsaken you, but is preparing you for something special. I won't tell you to try not dwell on your infertility..because I know that is impossible. But don't let it be your whole life. Children are a gift from God and he will give you that gift when He is ready. Maybe it will be a child that you give birth to or one you adopt. Our pastor's daughter adopted a little girl last year. Jessica Shields isn't able to get pregnant. There's a lot of us out there. Keep your faith, keep loving your hubby and wait on the Lord. Love to you and the rest of your family.
ReplyDeleteOh Miss Lena! I could never forget you. You and Carol were always so sweet to let Rachel, J.Thomas, and I follow you around the church all day. Now that I think about it, I have no idea why we were there. Maybe it was summer and Mom was at BSF. I don't remember it being hot . . . oh wait, it's only hot on Christmas morning in Lompoc! Thank you for your wonderful comment. Each person has a differnt story and people have been so encouraging to me. Thank you for your prayers.
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